Resistance and Self-Doubt

Have you ever connected with a book in such a way that when you were introduced to its pages, you knew that it was the right thing, at the right time? Then the excitement for the potential loaded in the pages turned to denial as the book sat ... and sat? I just picked up such a book—again. I can only say that it must now be the perfect timing for The War of Art: Break Through the Blocks and Win Your Inner Creative Battles. The director of the department where I work brought it back from an inspirational creative conference and shared it with our team as a resource. I jumped at the opportunity to read it.

As I have been preparing for my upcoming MASSIVE opportunity to participate in the Main Street Fort Worth Arts Festival in April, I swooped off the high of such an endorsement to the low of self-doubt. The question remained poised in my consciousness, even as I have been going about creating: Do I really have what it takes?

Well, I’ll cut to the punchline: Yes. After the winning combination of a good night’s sleep and a long and cathartic journaling session yesterday, the reinforcements arrived this morning. It arrived out of this book by author Steven Pressfield, in a short chapter entitled Resistance and Self-Doubt.

Self-doubt can be an ally. This is because it serves as an indicator of aspiration. It reflects love, love of something we dream of doing, and desire, desire to do it. If you find yourself asking (and your friends), “Am I really a writer? Am I really an artist? chances are you are.

The counterfeit innovator is wildly self-confident. The real one is scared to death.

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